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i have to rush thru this post.
n i have to do it fast.
realllyy fast.
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cause im off to my grandma's new home!
yeap. she bought a house recently,
@ bukit batok ke bukit gombak.huhu.
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kay, im sleeping over at pak long's place yesternight n today.
since pak su's fetching us tomorrow @ 10.30am.
FOR COUSIN'S BDAY CELEBRATION!!!
huhu. pictures! pictures! picturesss baby!
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N WE'LL BE DINNING @ SWENSENS!
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n mak su even told me to pelawe a friend of mine along, but seriously, i dont noe hu.
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actually, mak su wanted to dine at sakura or secret recipe, but then again, pk pk balek, SWENSENS the bestest choice.
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so yea, im looking forward to cousins birthday celebration!!!
yeeehawwww!
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n also, this coming sunday!
favourite mates=fun fun fun!!
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well, the main purpose i wanna blog today is actually bout MYSELF lah. n ive been keeping this for quite some time.
(its not that important actually, just for someone to read)
so readers, u may skip if u want to)
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sometimes, ok, all the time actually, im kinda confuse over some matters. i dont really noe what im supposed to do next. i dont really noe what i actually want. heartaches, headaches all the time wen i think abt this matter. gosh.
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sometimes, ppl tend to think that im the one in the wrong, but think again, i wont do things without a reason. u noe ape tu serik tak? SERIK?
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IM TALKING BOUT MY LOVE-LIFE, here.
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its true, everyone deserves a second chance. including u. but seriously, i dunno y but i need more time, alone. really. well, im not forcing u to stay, its really up to u. everone has a choice to make. doesnt mean im not hoping for us. but its just that, i dont really wanna think abt love for now.
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i dunno y, but i dont really have a reason for that, its just that, those things which happens between us last time, tak boleh dilupekan. not that i dendam or what. just that, i dun wanna get involve with guys for now. u shud noe the reason y. whatever things u said, is still fresh in my mind, every single tiny word.
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i told u i need time. but at the same time, i dont wanna keep u hanging. im confused, n i kept thinking bout this all the time, just that, i dont have an answer for it. oh gosh.
n let me get this straight, no one is toying w yr feelings.
N I REALLY THINK, THAT BY NOW, U SHUD NOE THAT THE 'UNKNOWN, MYSTERY' SOMEONE WHO TEXTED YOU YESTERDAY NIGHT WAS ACTUALLY ME. :D
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ok done.
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sometimes, wen i look back, its really WRONG to rush love. but then again, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. n semuenye yang berlaku ade hikmahnye. btol tak???
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we cant really force love, marriage, or whatever yg ade kene mengena dgn C-I-N-T-A, betol tak? i dont like to rush things, n i dont like it wen i have to buat DECISION yang terburu-buru, coz ill end up making the wrong choicen den regretting.
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(you may skip those parts which is in bright yellow.)
im sorry i cant be with u for now, i just dont have the reason y. maybe the FEAR is still there. i dont wanna elaborate.
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dont keep saying to me that, i, siti namirah, 'dont care lagi abt u', 'dont hope for us', dont anything, 'yr actions says this and that'. its really2 wrong to accuse me in any wayss u want. u might never realise that uve hurt me all these while by yr accusations.
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its true, my actions aint showing, my blog aint showing that i care abt u but i still do care. its all kept in the heart. n just that i dun wanna show. i wanna c how far u can go. easy said, ure no longer the person i noe wayyy back then in august 2008. wat happened? u said uve changed? but ure porving me wrong, really. its obvious, im not that dumb. u promised me soo much, but until now, i still can see that ure still the same.
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well, ive talked to much bout love.
i think my readers are getting boredd.
sorry.
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well, friends, thank u all for being there,
thx for caring.
thanis for those calls,
words of encouragements.
i appreaciate it alott.
really.
i love u guysss.
thx thx thx!
n for those whom i chatted with yesternight,
im really2 terribly sorry sebb offline gitu aje. msn prob, den i tak kuasa nak restart comp lagik, maklomlah, im not using my laptop. haha.
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PHYR'S HERE SOMETHING FOR U N GF TOO! :
n well, i chatted w one of my best guy friends yesternight. well, im really happy, wen he told me that I GAVE HIM HOPE. as in gave in hopes to carry on lah. WAT ARE FRIENDS FOR KAN MAN?
n he's blissfully attached with one PRETTY, TALENTED gf whom i did chat with too yesternight. n her name is, AMANI :D she's really awesome, n i really like the way she speaks english lah. (not like mine, so bochap!)
well man, im really happy for u, ill be looking forward to yr presence n yr gf's too next coming outing to BEDOK CORNER?
ok ok ok? uve got one awesome gf phyr! stay happy, n i really hope that yr r'ship will kekal hingga ke akhir hayat, insya-allah, amin. :D
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n wow, suprisingly, my counter dah hit 15 000 ALREADYY LAHH in just 4 monthss! i remmbered having it way back then in november! haha. sape agaknyeer my loyal readers??? hmmmm.
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ok lah, i chiow first ah.
n wait,
THANKS FOR THE CALL, FRIEND. ❤
n thx for listening to those shits we talked bout yesternight.
*huuugggssss*
U, LOVE.
