boo!haish.
TWO SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, TWO DAYS STRAIGHT.
okay, not really sleepless nights lah, just that ill only doze off around 5am, n i have to wake up at as early as 6.15am n masok keje.
im currently working as a baby-sitter, masok pukol 6.30 pagi habes kol 6 petang.
eh, si namirah ni baby-sit sape lak eh?
haha. nak tau sape??
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ADEK DIA LAHHHH.
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ok lame, i noe.
since zharfan's in e morning session, i terpakselah hantar dia n den fetch him. den siapkan dia makan, layan karena dia, help him out with homeworks. haha. (:
n for e past two nights, i haven been sleeping well.
really irritating.
e moment i shut my eyes, i tend to think bout my results.
sickening. really really v v sickening.
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dear tried his v v best yesterday to really distact me from all these, thx for e encouragements n stuffs baby.
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for today, i actually planned to have breakfast w dear after sending zharfan. but too bad i dozed off n woke up at 12.30 sey. kesian dear. haha. anihoos, ill make it up to u someday alrite? haha. at least tadi kite jumpe kan?
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n yay! Syairah dearest texted me this morning, regarding those poly's open house thingy. n yea, ill be meeting her tomorrow for REBUPLIC'S OPEN HOUSE!
yaynesss. its been a while since i met syairah. n i really2 miss gossiping+camwhoring w her :D
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i wanna go for sp's n np's open house. n my dear long lost primary skl friend texted me earlier on n invited me to nanyang's open house. wow. okay, one by one first, tomorrow rp, next day idk where. haha. okay2.
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n 24th jan is comingg pretty soon eyy. but im not really that excited coz im much more interested to noe my results yo. if results are satisfying n i can really proceed to somewhere im reallyyy interested in, ill go for e bbq. if its e other way round den, we'll c bout it :(
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u noe. like ive said in my previous post, wen im alone, i tend to think alot. n people, have u ever thought of death? i mean, not as in suicide or something close to dat, just that have u ever had dat feeling dat ure gonna die sooner or later? these few days, ive been thinking bout death. as u can c, news all over the world, people dying due to accidents, penyakits, kene murder n etc. v v scary. sometimes someone could die in his/her sleep. goshh.
n ajal dan maut ni semuenye di tangan tuhan.
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we might never noe wen's our death day.
ok, i only noe how to talk much, but im still not progressingg.
my madrasah n ngaji semue halfway.
but alhamdulillah, i still kenal huruf.
solat, skip2. i noe i very very very jahat. i noe.
cepat2 lah taubat namirah syg oi....
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sometimes words speaks louder than actions. really. i say i wanna do, in the end, i never do. no good, i noe.
since my new year's resolution is to really be a good daughter n pms is ending pretty soon, i really wanna doa banyak2 supaye allah akan kekalkan imanku.
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segale amal yg akan ku buat, tuhan yang maha esa, aku mohon kepadamu, kekalkan iman ku dan tunjukkan ku ke jalan yg lurus.
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ive always asked for that n for e safety of my loved ones. my nenek selalu pesan. jangan lupe doakan mama n papa, nenek n atok n semue skali lepas solat. sometimes ill tear wen doa-ring. coz those past memories will just past by gitu macam man.
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i noe, we cant run away from our sins. wateva im doing, i really have to tanggong sendiri. haish, klau nak ikotkan, having a bf je, at this age da salah, kenape? i think u muslim people shud noe. kan haram tu klau pimpan2 pelok2. tapi i degil, i still got bf. sighs. tapi dalam dunia ni, mane nak dapat seseorang lelaki yg macam pat cerita AYAT-AYAT CINTA TU?? okay maybe adelah. ONE IN A MILLION KOT.
sebab skarang, kebanyakkan lelaki(excluding syg n all those trusted guys i noe) really2 dont have that RESPECT for woman. v v scary sia. some of this people can really go for what they call, one night stand eh?
girls getting rape here n there.
seram.
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gosh. im talking nonsense sia.
naseb my bf respects me man. thx alot dear.
i sriously dont wanna end up choosing e wrong guy hu's only intrested in pussys. bad boy2. naseb tuhan temukan ku dengan nas :D
nevertheless, bf tetap bf. solat tetap solat, ngaji tetap ngaji.
okay. done.
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here are some pictures!
i dont noe what baby was doing but i think he's really cute in this pic. haha. today i create grandma story sia. i think those yg bace pun skip skip skip.
gosh, results cepat lah skit. my mind wont be at ease sampai results datang tau.
n i think i tend to look a bit different now compared to those past years.
do u guys think so?
okay. gtg. cant wait for tomorrow!
i ❤ u nas.
U, LOVE.
