today's e 24th.
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i didnt even had e chance to like shut my eyes n sleep yesterday night.
baby too. den baby came :)
thx for e company n sorry if i left u in e living room upteen times with my adek n i sedap2 tido at my dad's room.
sorry u...
baby left at 345pm .
n he spent half of his day at my place, checking those DOCUMENTS i saved, goin thru both our handphone's CONTACTS n tengok tv..
wen he da balek. i wash up, den TIDO sampai 6.15, did some GEOGRAPHY n buke KFC!
haha
after buke. i did some chemistry. n here i m talking w baby on e phone n blogging again
LIFE.
life has been a roller-coaster this year's puasa.
its my 3rd year puasa without mum around. how sad cud it be?
life, without yr mum by your side is not an easy thing.
imissmymumsomuch
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althou i get to see her on EVERY WEEKENDS, its just not e same like dulu.
i miss her cooking, nagging, beatings.n her LOVE esp. i just miss her so much.
but im glad dat dat she's happy now. if she's happy, im happy too.
i just miss those moments w her around in this house.
my mum will forever b my mum.
no matter how ugly her past was. she will still b my mum.
n i will always love her (:
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mum, i miss u.
ii miss those times wen we pegi geylang n shop for hari raya clothes together.
i miss geting scolded by u.
i miss SAHUR-ING w u.
i miss waiting for u for HOURS to siap on pagi RAYE.
u noe. for e past two years, our house tak kire sahur or buke, senyap je.
its like soo sunyi without mum around
. i tkde mood for raya each n evry year actually knowing dat mum is no longer w us.
but but but...
now dat im matured enuff to think wats right n wrong, ive accepted evrything w open heart.
ni semue takdir.
but e oni ting is, i just miss having mum around
. mum knows me v v well.
as much as Nasri noes me
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i wanna thank dad for taking good care of both me n adek.
all these years. ive missed mum but never did i voiced it out to anyone.
even mum.
i just dun wan her to susah hati, n dats all
u shud appreciate your mum wen she's still around. althou she loves to nag n nag n nag for hours, its for my own good.
n its bcz of her i didnt mix w e wrong company.
i thank her for those beatings n naggings n cannings i got from her all this while coz its worth it. seriously
. e worst part of my life is during PUASA n HARI RAYA.
it will always reminds me of mum. always.
althou mum is far away from me, she still cares about me n never did she lupekan her responsibility as a mother. u noe. ppl makes mistakes in life. i her own daughter had forgiven her longggg time ago. in fact. saye redah. if goin onto seperate ways will make my parents happy, im okay w it.
going thru n fro every weekends is quite tiring.
but ni semue da ditakdirkan.
berdosa kalau kite menyesal tentang ape yang telah berlalu
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this year's puasa mcm cepat na da nak raye.
n as usual for e 3rd year. it will oni b e 3 of us in e car bile pagi raye.
i remmbered tearing like hell wen i saw mum mintak maaf w dad last year.
it was sucha heart-breaking moment to c them realise their mistakes laa, i just went out of e room n teared somewherelse
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never had i told both mum n dad bout is rindu ting.
now i tink i cannot tahan alreadi so ive let it out here. its not an easy ting u noe. i love both my parents sooo v v v much. without them, siti namirah bte abdul rahim wont b right here, blogging
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u noe mum. many many tings happened wen ure not around. good n bad stuffs dat is.u noe, theres no one to talk too other den my friends, i understand dat dad is bz working n i dont really wan him to worry
. all those mistakes ive made for e past few years since u left, ive learned to pick myself up from wher i fall ALL BY MY OWN.
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w some of my friends help too
this years puasa is most challenging one. banyak bende telah happen mum. i dun wanna tell u coz i dun wan u to worry n make tings worst. i dunno y eversince im w nasri. some ppl around are like tak happy w me. hmmm nta la
ni semue bende kecik la. i dun really care actualli.
i just dun wan any shits to happen after this.
i seriously have no time for all this. LIKE IVE SAID O'S ARE COMING PRETTY SOON.
ill just dun bother bout all this stuffs dats goin on
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hate taggers ke. hate ape ke. hate ni ke tu ke.
hate la.
biar orang buat kite. jgn kite buat orang.
saba namirah saba.
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syg said:" biarlah ape orang nak cakap. kite pekakkan telinga sudah. "
n thanks to this guy up here. i feel so much better w him around. he's always there for me thru my thick n thin days since e first day he noes me. he's always there to console me. to always remind me to look on e brighter side of my life. at least ive got him.
thank u sooo v v much baby. n sorry to kip u waiting.
i love u so v v much.
ill b meeting u later kan
n 6 more days to our
1ST MONTHSARY!!!!!
U, LOVE.
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