3.15pm.baby's still asleep.
i tink da jadi our daily routine, to sleep only after sahur.
baby's phone put me to sleep yesterday.
i just love e songs in his phones.
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i think i can handle nokia phones already. i wonder how he's coping w my phone (:
u sanggup kan pakai phone i. haha. its irritating lah. skejap2 off. skejap2 off.
im so gonna get a new phone after O's.
oh wells. ill start mugging at 4 today till buke, w some breaks. i cant possibly squeeze so much in one time. my brain will go haywire sey.
den after ishak til love balik terawih :)
since love stepped into my life, i dun feel theres a nid to worry abt anything. coz love is always there for me. all e time. even in my dreams. seriously.
nothing can change e fact that he has made me e happiest girl alive. n is always there, helping me up w my problems. u noe, some probs im facing now is really2 dumb la. i really dun hav time for all this nonsense. ppl hating me here n there. nak carik pasal w me or wat.
so not in my TO-DO-LIST now.
O'levels is alreadi bugging me.
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this silly problems? uhh so not important.
"most girls"
i just love this song so much
"MOST GIRLS want a man with the bling bling Got my own thing, got the ching ching I just want real love MOST GIRLS want a man with the mean green Don't wanna dance if he can't be everything that I dream of A man that understands real love"
"I was a girl about the floss It was all about the cost, how much he spent on me Seek, for a man who's got the means To be givin you diamond rings It's what every fly girl could want or even dream But I'm not every girl and I don't need no G to take care of me Cuz shorty's got a job, shorty's got a car, shorty can pay her own rent Don't wanna dance if it is not in my heart."
so syg.
im not like MOST GIRLS okay.
i dun nid diamond rings, i dun nid u to spend a whole lot of money on me.
i just nid,
REAL LOVE.
thats what i meant in e previous2 post.
n u look so cute in yr side view baby!
thanks for yesterday's sweet post. u noe, evry single post is e sweetest thing. thank u for giving me strength love. thank u for calling me every night to cheer me up. thanks for lighting up my day. thanks for giving me yr fullest attention baby. thanks for being awake just for me.
thanks for lending me yr phone once again. i just love those songs in it. they did put me to sleep yesterday. our 1st month anni is coming pretty soon. lets hav a candle light dinner at my place or yrs one day. yr balcony is simply e perfect place for it.
thanks for enduring those probs ppl had been giving me since e very first day we got together. from this stupid tagboard to others. but alhamdulillah, all those probs never lead us to a fight. no matter how stressed it is. no matter how much it hurts deep down inside, as long as theres u by my side, ill b fine (:
so ppl. hate me as much as u wan. talk abt me as much as u wan. i dun give a damn. coz this is my life afterall. i live it my way. ure not me. so just dun bother. mind yr own business la ok.
im glad that those hate-taggers are no longer here. talking bout me n my friends semue. alhamdulillah.
so i bet this wont b e end. there will b more stories to come. more probs to deal w. eversince i got attached w him, problems had been pilling up. but no worries. it wont bother me a single bit. coz if they start it first, it them hu is gila la. tak tentu pasal nak carik pasal. so theres no point layaning this ppl. they really have nothing better to do.
im glad dat i still hav my parents, family, friends n syg there for me.
do u?
my friends had been asking around.if im ok or m i facing any probs here n there. my grandparents, uncles n aunties too n of coz my mum.. its always e same thing. is evrything fine?
n i just smiled la.
no comment.
i just dont wish to talk bout things here. ill just keep them to myself la. despite those smile i had on my face lies a broken heart deep down inside. i just dont understand y ppl around are doing this to me. y do they have to bring me down always. i didnt even kacau them la. some of them, i dun even noe hu e hell they are. y must they intefere w my life dear? wat wrong had i done to them?
but,
this is life afterall. like ive said b4. some ppl may like u, some ppl dont. we cant run away from problems. n dat doesnt mean we have to give up la.
like love said " there's always a solution to a problem."
im treating all this problems as a challenge la. so come on, TRY ME :)
if u wanna play this game w me, ill jz go w e flow.
but let me remind u. wats mine is mine alrite. dun try to cross e bloody line..coz theres always a limit to ones patience n anger. if u can get fustrated, y cant i?? im a human being just like u. if uve got problems, ive got problems too.
so bersyukurlah dengan ape yang kita ada sekarang. coz thers others out there YG LEBIH SUSAH DARIPADE KITE. - my to-be-mother-in-law always says that.
b thankful for wat uve got now ppl. coz i m. im thankfull to hav my family, friends n loved ones to b always there for me (:
so just b greatful people.
im glad that im still young n theres still a long way to go. now its really time for me to just pray to allah n seek for forgiveness thruout my 17 years, since e day i first start my period. from what i noe, from e very first day, klau kite menses, we are on our own. all our dosa, WE TANGGUNG ourself pat akhirat. so i had mine in p5 n its like 6 years alreadi. ive been standing on my own feet, tanggung-ing my dosa all by myself. my parents da tkde kene mengene lagik.
okay. i bebual like mcm paham. but seriously, i paham..
okay. im mugging in 20 mins time.
thank u so much baby.
i love u.
U, LOVE.
