❤ u Sam

Saturday, September 15, 2007 8:30 PM

its 5 plus in e morning nw...
still cant get my eyes closed w a PEACEFULL mind...
its gonna b a lonnnggg post....

i tot tings were goin to b okay....
but,
im jz making it WORST!

NAMI!
wat have u done??

weve started chatting on msn back..
n were okay a lil..
den one day b4 puase...
we went to syahir's hse, n had a great time w e rest, soccer of cz...

hmm...
it was like straight away after skl...
me, yan n firman went to wait fer syahir under his blk..
rai went hme ferst to get her art stuffs w, u noe hu...
i went hme to get my art stuffs...
n guess wat...
he sent me hme!
cz he was at syahirs hse dat time..
n i was under syahirs blog...
requested to be sent home...
haha..
end up..
he sent me home..

my feelings were unXPLAINABLE...
n it was lyke on syahirs bike lar...
wohhoo...
den..
at ferst i was lyke...
segan...
i didnt noe y...
mayb da lamer tk jmpe...

but it turns out fine...
i did not fell..
syukur!
not like e other time...
it left me a big bruise which hurts alot lar till nw... haha...

took my art stuffs n den, went to syahirs hse by bike again...
love e slope part... he was like speeding lar! n i was like soo takot.. tpi tk brani nk ckp BREAK!
nnti jatoh cm time tu lagik cm nangke busok!
haha...

den...
ther were sum EMO parts lar...
wen i sat alone...
listened to jiwang SONGS...
n den... tears start flowing down... sedih....
m i too emotional?
but bear tis lar.. im NOT an EMO-FREAK...

haish...
i do love laughing though...
even wen i cry...
weird eh?
hehe...

well..
but sadly, he went off first..
tapi.. sanggop dia tunggu ku...
soo went hme together...
tanx lar!

hmm...
den!
i was soooo stupid...
to msg dia...
argh...
wen i reach hme...
at around 8+ i guess...
told him dat i wanna end evryting...
cz he wans it ryte last week!

NAMI2! NAPE KO BODO NAHHH...
DIA DA DIAM...
ko pulak mcm2!
nk prangai tkmo time gini kan!

haishh..
but ive alreadi ucapkan kate2 tu semue...
haish..
sadly...
he said dat he didnt wan dat to happen...
but wen i told him bout wat he said last week...
he den said..
haiss..nvm k bye.

wah...
nami2!
u n yr big mouth...

aisey..
den ku diam...
tk mau reply pape...
dalam 1 hr later...
ku kate... yg ku miss dia..
n den bla3!

tros tk jadik tinggalkan dia..
haish..
U SHUD NOE RYTE...
I DUN MEAN WAT I SAID...
EVRYTING DAT CUMS OUT FRM ME...

MAY IT B
~ANGER
~EGO
~SALA SANGKE
~JEALOUSY
~APE2LAH...

tings which got to do w e topic`cnferm mesti gado.`
haish...
i dun mean all those...

memang namirah ni
orgnyer...
kate2 bole manyakitkat hati noqman...
tapi noq kene tau...
i dun mean them..
those are jz werds of anger...
haish...
noq ingat mia suke gado ngn noq?
noq ingat...
chat ngn noq jer kene gado?

tk noq..
mia tkde niat nk gado..
sumhow
ade2 jer sala faham antare kite due...
den gado...
haish...
maafkan mia...
mia tkle ubah...
memang mia da gini... noq nmpakkn?
mia tk na ubah...
haish...

maafkan mia...
mungkin noq tk faham..
mia memang da mcm gini...
im sorry i cnt change....
im namirah. n ill b 4eva cm gini i rase...

haish...
im always like tis...
i cnt change...
i dunno hw to change...
sumtimes i feel dat i da change...
but wenva we ckp sal e past..
we will end up GADO...
den.. ull jz offline gitu...
sedih...
n ill b e one crying in e end...
no wonder u didnt wan to tolk bout e past...

im trying to understand u skit demi skit skrng...
hopefully...
i will understand u one day....

n im sori bout yesterday...
i dun MEan WAT I TOLD U...

seriously...
im really sori...
haish...